Closure

How do I tell you that I wanna be with you so badly? How can I tell you if our timing is never right...? How do I tell you I've been waiting for someone like you but when I finally get to see the real you is not what I want?

How do I tell myself it is ok to think I want something and when I see how that actually would (not) work let it go if inside I feel all I care about is you wanting to be with me...? How do I let you go when you were never here anyways? How do I erase memories I created in my mind when all the real ones were painful and empty of passion, thoughtfulness, or even love?

I do, I just see you for who you are and what I become when I'm around you. I do, I just forget all the memories that never existed and remember all the times your indifference hurt me. I do, I accept that wanting something to the extreme of changing it in my mind so it wouldn't feel so wrong is actually wanting something different, something better, something else...