One size doesnt fit all

When you talk about time you make me wander of times we haven't shared but that I've imagined infinite times in my mind. You make me think of all the things I would say when I wake up and dial the phone. The silences I would love to share with you in middle of a sunset sitting in the stairs and playing with my fingers in your hair. I imagine walking next to you and daydreaming at the same time, singing songs when we are apart, and surprising you at your job. I wonder if we ever had a chance. I wonder if they weren't here, would you ask me out?

Would you ever be so brave to face your own fears and let go of the ones that have hurt you and give a chance to the ones that have only helped you? Would you let me in your life not as a friend but as a girl? Would you let me in your heart and give it to me to take care of it? Would you care for me back? Would your smile still be the same that when you laugh at our conversations? Would you ask me out?

I want to stop wandering and live up the dream, the dream of you wanting me, not even loving, but wanting to try it. Just wanting to know what it feels like being someone like me. I want you to see what I see: a sea of chances awaiting for you to chose one from them. All I want is not to be the only one dreaming of different realities were we are actually together.

I feel the fear in my bones, telling me what a bad idea this is. I feel it in my heart, screaming at my mind, telling it that we are gonna get hurt because there are too many unknown variables. I also listen to my being screaming that this is right. Wanting you is what I feel in every part of my being. There isn't a single cell that isn't telling me you are worth all of this.

I don't even wanna know what we would do in a month, week, or day. I just want a minute worth of us, of a real us.

I am tired of trying, I want to be, and if there is anyone I want to be with is you.